I love my son. I will admit that I had a rough start in the beginning.  If you notice in the archives on my blog, I was missing in action for awhile. I had PDD and was breast feeding. I knew how important breast feeding was and I did not want to stop to go on medication. Looking back I wish I would have, I feel I would have been closer to my son sooner. Don’t get me wrong I have loved him from the beginning, it is just different now. I look at him and my heart just melts and I don’t know what I would do without him. My beginning memories are all a fog and feel like they never took place. I am sharing this because I think it is good for moms to share the bad along with the good. That way new moms out there will not feel alone.